內舉不避親 外舉不避嫌

民主政治一向是台灣最引以為傲的成就。然而花蓮縣縣長傅崐萁，卻做了最糟糕的示範。

傅崐萁在上一次花蓮縣縣長選舉代表親民黨，準備和前任縣長謝深山一較高下。最後，不敵國民黨在花蓮縣根深蒂固的樁腳集團，高票落選。後來，傅崐萁加入國民黨，任花蓮縣的立法委員。此次花蓮縣的縣長選舉，因傅崐萁有案在身（內線交易：一審判刑四年六個月及高院更一審判刑四年）故未獲得國民黨提名。傅以無黨籍參選，以56.37％高票當選花蓮縣長。

昨日在縣長就職典禮上，傅崐萁任命其『前妻』徐榛蔚為副縣長。
若傅崐萁二審定讞需發監服刑，則其妻可接任縣長一職延續其政治優勢以及鞏固既有的樁腳。如此骯張猖狂，令人做噁的事，在台灣的地方政治上，並非首見。前台東縣長鄺麗貞也是相同的情形。

早年每到選舉的時候，就會有候選人以『選上過關，落選被關』來激起民眾對於白色恐怖的想像，儘管候選人本身並非因為政治因素而遭起訴。代夫或是代父出征，出來參選公職的也比比皆是。這樣的政治語言一而再，再而三的傷害台灣司法體系的威信和聲望，時至今日，大部分的人質疑司法的公正。

台灣的民眾到底在想什麼？為什麼一次又一次地讓這些地方派系把持？
傅崐萁，請不要為了個人的政治私利，踐踏台灣的民主政治，民主政治並不是這樣讓人做地分贓。

Is it bad that I am wondering the possibility of J cheating?
Cheating might be a strong word, let me rephrase it.
Is there a possibility that J feels attracted by someone?
At this very moment I know that he is with his family.
Somehow I sense something is going on though I don't know what it is yet.
My sixth sense has always been incredible.
Not that I am psyched, there were a few times when I was totally clueless.
However, when I sensed it, I was usually on the right track.

I am bleeding, inside and out.

The fact that we can never trust each other hurts my heart.
It is too naive and innocent to believe such urban legend that you can fully trust a person.
I understand it perfectly but it doesn't diminish my desire at all.
What I want is an open and honest relationship which you can trust each other.
Who am I trying to fool?
I can't even get pass the idea myself.
All I need is less reason and more passion.

I am getting old.
I can see a pattern that I always fall into.
Never thought that I would have a type.
I like the nice guy type!
J, you are so nice and I love you!

I am very touched and inspired by Willa Cather.
She once advert "The qualities of a second-rate writer can easily be defined, but a first-rate writer can only be experienced. It is just the thing in him which escapes analysis that makes him first-rate."
What is my special quality?
What sets me different from others?

壓力好大。。
感覺自己像是一隻在壓力鍋中的土雞，
天啊！
再五分鐘，我就要全身癱軟，從頭到腳，化為一碗雞湯。

The act of missing or thinking about someone constantly.

Missing someone or something is a very unique feeling.
You thought you miss someone but when the oppertunity presents itself.
The silence in the air indicates something is "missing" .
Over rated seems to be the prefect caption.

Alice

最近瘋狂迷上PPS 每天不斷streaming....
真是懶惰者的無間地獄 (或者天堂??!)

所以今天要來介紹一下新片
Syfy於 2009年 12月6日推出的miniseries: Alice.

原本以為這一部想要搶搭 Tim Burton艾莉絲夢遊仙境便車的模擬之作
沒想到大出我的意料之外 是一部科幻版的艾莉絲夢遊仙境
我一口氣把兩集看完，情節緊湊而且十分有創意。

內容描述Alice Hamltion的男友被不明人士綁架，Alice 試圖搶救回自己心愛的人。距離上一次凡人進入仙境已經過了150年，這150年來，仙境起了巨大的變化，跟童話故事版本裡的仙境大有不同。
（就說到這裡，免得破壞了觀賞的樂趣）

Alice由Caterina Scorsone 飾演。
又是一枚所謂精靈系的女演員。







Hatter 由 Andrew Lee Potts飾演，
聽說他也有演Primaltive 不過不是我的菜。
Hatter在裡面搶盡風采，和Disney卡通裡面的hatter 大不相同喔！

同場加映：
Alice in wonderland, 大家小時候所看的Disney版本，其實不只是改編自Lewis Carroll's Alice's Adventures in Wonderland（1865），還同時加入了 Through the Looking-Glass (1871)。其實兩本書的編排頗為類似，Through the Looking-Glass 絕非狗尾續貂之作，而是補足前作之不足。

Keen Sense

Someone once said the keen senses would direct you to the right path of writing. Description is the key in all writing

First, I have to confess. There is no such person who said so, there might be someone there actually said so but there wasn't actually someone who told me so. For some reason, it seems easier to have my point across by referencing to authority. Erik and professor Yang both noticed that horrible characteristic I have. It could be a sign of my insufficient confidence. Erik once told me, if it is a good idea, none cares whether Foucault felt the same about it. I need to have more confidence in myself and be more bold!

Anyways, back to our original topic-keen senses. Too much details could be a downer for writing , however, with moderate usage it could be amazing. Take Eileen Chang for example, she never failed to surprised her readers with the enormous amount of detailed description to the environment characters were in. Somehow when I close my eyes, I can travel back in time and be there in the story.

I do believe I have keen senses although it doesn't mean that I can produce great description. I can hear the most irrelevant insignificant sound in daily life. For instance, I love to hear that tiny sounds of how electricity travel through the wires, it's like the mixture of sizzling hot iron plate and the rattle snakes.

What can you hear?

Weirdness

It's strange how similar we are.
Although we didn't even try to be, our life and routine have become a lot mroe similar than we knew.
As years gone by, maybe we will eventually be the same.

So lost with the whole Bluetooth thing.........
Anyone out there who can help?

Let there be lightt.

Here is what I realized today.

I love my table light a lot more than my chandelier.
I love the way my table light shines on me and my laptop.
I love how the table light had been in our family for as long as I can remeber.
After we replaced the old paper shade with new ones, it didn't change anything about the light, only makes it better and cleaner.
The mixture of great design and the sense of history.
I guess the greatest design is the one that is timeless and classic.
Even after 20 some years, it still looks better than ever.
Sometime I am considering taking it whereever I go.
You can say I am sentimental in some ways.
However, I felt maybe I am simply being more impersionist.
After all, without light, there is nothing.

I miss you.
I have no idea how hard life could be without you and you were simply gone for a while.
Everything seems so dull without your presence.
I understand that you have lots of thing on your plate right now.
Just want you to know that there is someone here thinking about you.

Remember how I always say that I am perfect content with myself and I don't need other people for companionship.
I was wrong.
The reason that I don't need others is because I have you.
Not being able to talk to you and driving me crazy.
You are the only thing in my life right now that can keep my sanity.

I miss you.

Forever 21: I'm SO bloging this.

When I saw this on Forever21's website, I was a bit shocked and I have to say, it does remind me of Erik!

Erik has a book called " A Blogger's Manifesto: Free Speech and Censorship in the Age of the Internet " which you can get it on Amazon. The Chinese version at Books.

Ally Kerr--Off the Radar

Ally Kerr, 一個來自格拉斯哥，蘇格蘭對台灣很陌生的名字。
上上禮拜天，為了要慶祝 J 君的生日，我倆默默地去The Wall。
本來對這場演出沒有什麼太大的期待，在Youtube上看到了他的音樂，清柔，在我喜愛的範圍內。 當時，我對此人的評論為：『他的音樂給人感覺起來是歐陸纖細型、微娘的金髮帥哥，臉和音樂鬥不起來』（真是不好意思，但當時這確為我的看法 =P ）

看了現場演出之後，觀感為之一變。
Ally Kerr相當具有個人魅力，在一群難以掌握（台灣的聽眾不闇英文，對於外籍歌手來說確實難炒熱氣氛）的觀眾面前表現的不卑不吭。整場分為三個段落，Ally Kerr和Ryan Burns 的不插電清唱；Ally Kerr和樂團的合作，最後以不插電做結。到了尾聲， J君和我不禁隨著音樂起舞，會後還有簽CD和合照的時間。整體來說，是個相當有水準的演唱會經驗。

Ally Kerr在表演每首歌之前，都會幽默地小小的介紹一下每首曲子的創作背景，幾乎每一首歌都跟前女友有關。前女友果然是一個讓大家都難以忘懷的創作來源阿！ 哈
其中我最喜歡莫過於The Toothbrush Song. 都已經兩個禮拜了，這首歌還是一直鬼打牆的在我腦裡。




J君買的是第二張專輯 Off the Radar.
1) Could Have Been A Contender
2) Be The One
3) I Think I'm Bleeding
4) There's A World
5) The Toothbrush Song
6) Off The Radar
7) Old Friend
8) Is It Too Late To Work For NASA?
9) Mystery Star
10) Amorino
11) The Truth That I Have Earned
12) Footprints

總的來說，這張專輯理得每首歌都蠻易聽(easy listening)，用一個老梗的形容詞：清新。（在台灣幾乎只要是柔和的曲風，都一定會用清新來形容）。同時這張專輯裡歌也很容易鬼打牆，在腦子裡久久不散，心臟不好者不要輕易嘗試。（哈）


同場加映：幫Ally Kerr伴奏合音的Ryan Burns，在一陣閒聊中透露自己的年齡，竟然才18歲！！年紀輕輕就已經開始巡迴演出，此君的前途無量呀！
他就是我說的那種歐陸系纖瘦的長髮金髮帥哥！帥死人不償命！！！默默地覺得他更適合參加Jonas Brothers那類偶像團體。（笑）

好團推薦：Flobots

Flobots作為一個主流廠牌（Universal）下的樂手，還能保有自身對社會的批判，是相當難能可貴的。Flobots的音樂形式為搖滾＋Hip Hop，有人說：Flobots聽起來像是Eminem+Cake. The lead rapper John 5 回應：我們自己並不認為我們聽起來跟Eminem or Cake類似，但是假若這是別人得以認識我們的方法，那麼我們也無所謂。一開始當我們被置於另類搖滾樂團，我們明顯的和其他的另類搖滾不同，也因此受到矚目。





2007年，他們發行首張專輯。（其實已是第三張，前兩張皆為獨立發行）

1. “There’s a War Going On for Your Mind” – 1:22
2. “Mayday!!!” – 4:36
3. “Same Thing” – 3:29
4. “Stand Up” – 4:38
5. “Fight with Tools” – 4:51
6. “Handlebars” – 3:27
7. “Never Had It” – 5:07
8. “Combat” – 2:05
9. “The Rhythm Method (Move!)” – 3:52
10. “Anne Braden” – 4:21
11. “We Are Winning” – 3:22
12. “Rise” – 4:10
13. “Iraq” (UK bonus track) – 3:31

第一次聽到Flobots到現在大概也有兩年了，一直拖到最近才想要去瞭解他們的想法和哲學。在閱讀和聆聽的過程之中，慢慢地被他們所感動。最初是從Handlebar這首歌（同時也是他們加入環球後所發的的第一單曲）開始認識他們。最初，被音樂旋律所感染，覺得是首易聽也容易記得的好歌。仔細聽後，才發現歌詞原來這麼具有爆發力，同時，對我來說，似乎呼應了漢娜鄂蘭（Hannah Arendt）『邪惡的平庸性』（banality of evil）的概念。邪惡的本身，也不過是從個人的意志和心願而起。
本來想要放上他們的MV的，沒想到現在Youtube不讓人隨便Embeded了，只好放網址，聊勝於無摟...（有好心人士願意教我嗎？）

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AuK2A1ZqoWs

大推曲目： “We Are Winning” “Anne Braden”

A letter with no address

After the talk last night, it is clear that we knew what might happen all along.
We just choose to over look it.
At least, I do.

It made me feel more sad than the actual break up.
It seems to me that this is the story of my life.
People walks in my life fora good year or two, then eventually they have to leave.
Leave me to be more exact.

You always said that I can be extremely detached if I want to be.
How can you not be when there is nothing to look for and everything you thought it was right proven to be wrong in the end.

I don't like to talk about my feelings because it doesn't solve the problem.
When you know there is nothing you can do to fix it, what is the point to talk about it?

Are we still in love?
Are we reaching the end of it?
Are we there yet?

You will never understand why I am acting the way I am.
I hate to explain myself.
You simply will never get it.
Sometimes you can't meet it in the half way.
How ironic........

It's awfully dreadful and sad in my blog.
I just realized it.
If there is a way for me to let out the steam in life, my blog is definitely one of it.
I guess, in this way, it's not too psycho if I want to keep it this way.
But then, this ultimately reveals a bigger character's flaws.
I care too much....
about EVERYTHING but the important things.

Let it be me.

I am not angry nor sad.
I feel I have nothing to say.
If you really have to find a reason, let it be me then.

12 books

I can't really rate the importance(the book had brought to me) so I just put them in random* order.

Random, when it pops out of my head. =)

1. The Historian.
2. The Name of The Rose.
3. The Stranger.
4. The Island of Yesterday.
5. The Handmaid's Tale.
6. Dante Club.
7. Looking Awry.
8. Flowers for Algernon
9. Dream of The Red Chamber-曹雪芹Cao Xueqin
10.Fahrenheit 451
11. Arsene Lupin
12. Stella Luna

It's truly like a karma.
The more you want to put it behind you, the more it hunts you back.
I often wonder: Am I really the only one who has issue?
I don't have any close friends.
Sad but true.
I do have social schedule but that's all.
Sometimes I felt like I am all alone.
I keep on losing track on others
It seems to me that I subconsciously trying to maintain a proper distance with people.

Where do I belong or where don't I ?

做自己

從來都不覺得作自己很難
也許因為老是以為自己特立獨行 與眾不同
最深沈的恐懼便是與刻板印象不謀而合

近來 發現 自己越來越和常態分配靠近
這也絕非舊聞
高中時的覺悟：自己絕非品味特異之人，只不過早別人一步罷了
現今的覺悟又是什麼呢？

最大的敵人不過就是自己吧。

在被耗盡的當下重生 是一種幸福嗎？

轉眼間 就要兩年
我還是一樣 一事無成
你 要離開了
人世間的事情怎麼了呢？

無意間找到被埋藏已久的心情
怎麼開始 就該怎麼結束

無

有人曾經對我說過:
我跟妳一樣，很不喜歡一個人。
可是，我們如果先接受的話，接下來的關係就會更好！
我們雖然很不一樣，可是也很相似。

錯過了自己的這班車 一切都變的好難


不吵不鬧的女人才是最令人不寒而慄

假如馬英九是我的巧克力

自國際邊緣轉載
作者：甯應斌

馬英九總統日前駁斥他和美籍藝人巧克力的親密光碟傳聞，說是「子虛烏有，空穴來風」。其實這個八卦事件涉及的不只是真假的問題，也揭露了社會文化的成見。若沒有這些成見，也就不會有八卦的存在，所以我們不必執著於事件真假，反而要藉此事件來破除成見。

讓我們做個思想實驗。

假如馬英九與巧克力的事件是真的，那麼人們該怎樣思考總統與同性戀的關係？首先，我們應該像美國人自豪選出了黑人 總統一樣，也自豪選出了同性戀或雙性戀總統；若缺乏這種自豪，那表示我們對同性戀的成見還沒破除，就像少數美國人還沒破除對有色人種的歧視一樣可恥。台灣 人民若能自豪有個同性戀總統，這也會讓國際對台灣人民的素質刮目相看、讚佩欽羨，奠定台灣人道德氣度與多元文化的正面形象。

再說，由於馬英九向來被認為在道德人格與操守上十分嚴謹，故而若此事件為真，就更破除了同性戀不道德的成見。其實 一個人的性取向或偏好對象，也就是此人的性幻想內容，不論是同性、SM、公仔、怪獸、Ａ片等等，都屬於心靈私密的超現實想像，無關道德意志，也和適任公 職、教職或聖職無關。即使把幻想付諸實行，只要不侵犯別人，也無關道德操守。

可是，如果馬英九與巧克力事件為真，那麼馬英九是否對不起周美青？其實這是他們小兩口的家務私事。每對配偶的情慾 狀態不同，不可能都用同一公式套用，只要雙方都同意或諒解，每個家庭自有其安排，社會則應該學習尊重不同家庭或配偶的差異。外遇並不等同錯誤，配偶同意的 外遇更不能說是錯，且與外人根本無關。有些雙性戀者得到配偶的體諒，可以外遇發展同性的性愛關係，這種體諒的情懷與氣度值得讚揚，這種家庭的智慧安排也值 得肯定。

如果馬英九是男同性戀，卻因種種原因而進入異性戀婚姻，那麼是否應該加以譴責呢？目前同性戀婚姻不合法，又有各種 壓力迫人結婚成家，應該有不少同性戀因此而進入異性戀婚姻。這些人未必心存欺騙，有些是出於孝順與家庭和諧而犧牲自我，有些是抱著決心來適應異性戀婚姻生 活，還有一些是為了小孩而繼續維繫婚姻。這些都是情有可原的。更何況天下無數異性戀男女也都是抱著類似的動機與原因而結婚，並未遭受非議。同性戀與異性戀 結合的家庭，或許是無性夫妻，缺乏愛情火花，但是這也是不少異性戀家庭的現狀。總之，這類家庭也有可能是堪稱完滿的，是多元家庭的一種。

看來，站在破除成見的立場，我們反倒希望馬英九與巧克力是真的。

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不想要就不要

不想要就不要 是我人生最高的指導原則
也許 這樣近乎自私
但是 違背自身意願的事情 就不應該去做
否則 和被強暴有何不同
被人生強暴 似乎就是人生最弔詭之處

苦

世界上最痛苦的事莫過於江郎才盡

Watchman

Tonight a comedian died in New York. Somebody knows why.....

Rorschach's Journal: October 12th 1985





Watchman no doubt has created a new set of trend for superheros.
For a Hollywood blockbuster movie, Watchman certainly had its advantages such as good action sciences, sex, and lots of good visual effects and so on.And it is clear that the directer tried hard to replicate what was in the comics. For the fact that he tried to recreate the original comics, Zack Snyder focused too much on all the details, it became too redundant and trivial. And also, there are simply too many metaphors. It might be better if it was a TV series or something like it, that I agree with Fanboy


After watching this movie, it does rise a few arguments.

First I will start with the ordinariness in superheros. In Watchman, superheros might get killed, locked in, not to mention aged and lost shapes. Some of them were really powerful and talented, the rest of them are just average people like you and me. I admire the way Zack Synder enhance or choose not to ignore their wrinkles. This really brings it out more. It further shows how subjugated they were to a greater other out there. When facing the calling of the otherness(by using the word "otherness", I meant it in a more philosophical way. It could be the national machine or an image that they are longing for), they don't always make the right decisions. Take the Comedian for example, he tried to rape silk, killed woman and children cold bloodily, none of these are what we expected from superheros. In his world, once you figure out what a a joke everything is, being the Comedian's the only thing that makes sense.

The death of the comedian brings out the "memory". Everyone remembers him differently, it is exactly by try to retrace their memory, people get to recreate something new. Something they would never imagine.

放下

越是想放下 就越放不下

越是想減肥 就越減不了

低腰褲 low cut jeans...

不知道從何時開始 低腰褲開始成為時尚的代表
每當電視上想要諷刺某人是個書呆子的時候
肯定是讓他穿上 高腰褲

不過風水輪流轉 這一兩年高腰褲又開始漸漸復燃
打開我的衣櫃 裡面無一例外的 皆為肚臍以下的低腰褲
並非我獨鍾低腰褲 在台灣可還真的買不到高腰褲 (笑)

在這裡我還是得為低腰褲說一句公道話
低腰褲穿的好的話 是真的蠻性感的! (哈,又一被洗腦的最佳範例)

對於低腰褲,我也有一些不明白之處
褲腰越低 在某種程度上來說 不是腿更短了嗎?
而且低腰褲還真非人人能穿
過胖的人士 穿低腰褲 腹部的肥肉被擠的一圈一圈 只能以慘不忍睹來形容

My name is Earl

My name is Earl已經邁入堂堂第四季了
應該能算是我最近喜愛看的影集之一
台灣雖然有播蠻多美國影集，但是播的速度都蠻慢的。
我最近喜歡看，有在follow的有 Ugly Betty, Gossip girl, House, CSI (三個我都有看！),dexter和 My name is Earl.

哈哈哈 被發現我喜歡看電視了
Earl---不務正業，專幹偷拐搶騙的 trailer park boy. staring by Jason Lee




Randy--- Earl有點傻傻，卻很善良（?!）的弟弟 staring by Ethan Suplee




Joy---Earl的前妻，身材美艷，行為囂張 staring by Jaime Pressly




Darnell---Crab Shack的員工，同時是Earl的好朋友，同時也是Joy的現任老公。staring by Eddie Steeples



Catalina---從墨西哥偷渡來美國，白天是旅館的清潔工，晚上是脫衣舞孃。Earl的好朋友，同時也是Randy暗戀的對象。staring by Nadine Velazquez