Is it bad that I am wondering the possibility of J cheating?
Cheating might be a strong word, let me rephrase it.
Is there a possibility that J feels attracted by someone?
At this very moment I know that he is with his family.
Somehow I sense something is going on though I don't know what it is yet.
My sixth sense has always been incredible.
Not that I am psyched, there were a few times when I was totally clueless.
However, when I sensed it, I was usually on the right track.

I am bleeding, inside and out.

The fact that we can never trust each other hurts my heart.
It is too naive and innocent to believe such urban legend that you can fully trust a person.
I understand it perfectly but it doesn't diminish my desire at all.
What I want is an open and honest relationship which you can trust each other.
Who am I trying to fool?
I can't even get pass the idea myself.
All I need is less reason and more passion.