This is what happened to me last night.

I want to to tell you what happened last night first.
I didn't know who she is until Eric came talk to me about stuff like" Do you know she has this huge crash on John?" " There was this one time, they were drinking at Woo, she said" not for your girl friend looks so cute, I would totally steal you away from her."
I asked Eric what her name is. Eric said" It's Candy."

The word " PREMEDITATION" was floating around in my head.But, soon I realized premeditation was not the right word for it.For the fact that you knew she had a crash on you and still you let it happened.
This is a MUTUAL understanding!

I can still remember how depressed I was that day in the afternoon right before we broke up, how excited you were about going to that KTV party, and how much she wanted you to go.
Not to mention how drunk they got you.

I didn't even drink much at that point, soon I drank two tequila shots. So I don't have to live with it.
It was just too much for me. I can't stop crying...
I needed to tell someone....I knew this was the stupid part.
Among all people, I told Helen.
Helen immediately decided to do something about it regardlessly.

She asked her to come over to our table, tried to be nice and made her drink.
Or let me rephrase it, got her drunk.
So we sat down at the same table and had a few drinks together.
Later on, Helen started to make some small talks with her .
Helen said " My boyfriend dumped me." "White guys love to cheat."
Do you want to know what did Candy said?

She replied " I had never dated any white guys here nor had sex with anyone not even ONS."
Yes, I know. It wasn't sex. It was a matter of INTERPRETATION.
Anyway, I just lost it at that point. I couldn't take it anymore.
Next thing I did was started to take more shots by myself. During that point,I couldn't even taste it!

" I need to walk away from here" "I can't stand looking at her."
So I walked to the restroom and stayed there for few minutes, indulged myself with some crying.
After I got back from the restroom, Candy told me how much you love me and how you showed the whole class my picture and all that.
It made me want to throw up.
Then she complained about me being cold to her.

This is simply too much for me. I didn't know I need to be the best friend of someone who happened to went down on my EX right after we broke up and made out with him before it.
Obviously I didn't get that memo when they were passing around at Gloria.

Soon after this, Joe came talk to me.
He said I wasn't being nice to her.
Joe said" No matter what happened, you shouldn't blame it onto her." " It wasn't her who could not stand the temptation."

To be honest, maybe I blamed it to her, maybe not. But it was really not a good time to lecture me about how much more gracefully I could be.So I needed a little time by myself AGAIN.
I went outside and couldn't stop myself from crying.
Brandon got so shocked from what is happening and kept apologizing.
I guess this was roughly about what happened last night.
Oh, well the rest is, I tried to protect Candy by sending her home.
So Helen got pissed off that Candy left and she started to break glasses and bowls.

I really think this wouldn't bother me. I guess I was wrong.
Obviously, I made a fool out of myself.
"If you couldn't stand the heat, don't go to kitchen", some American dude said it once.
We were totally fine and loving loving before I bumped into it face to face.
The chances are, after few days, I will forget about it and we will laugh about it together.
But right now, I would rather believe I can CHANGE, YES, I CAN!
We deserve a better life, a life without all these crazy drama.
Yes, We do! And YES, WE CAN.