Sex in two cites

Sex and the City 2 自從6月上映以來
根據本人小小的民調 幾乎全台灣20至50歲的女性都進了戲院
就為了支持自己心目中的girl pals, Carrie, Charlotte, Miranda ,and Samantha.

SATC對我來說陪我度過了高中和大學時期
儘管她們所面臨的困境 對當時的我來說絕對是過於世故和複雜
但是在某種層面來說 經過了六年的互相(互相似乎太一廂情願,但對我而言,當我藉由我的詮釋體系來解釋我所能理解, 這些角色經由轉化也帶有我的詮釋風格)認識與了解, 這些角色對我來說就像是我的想像朋友,我們之間的紐帶另人難以思索的深.

SATC the movie第一集上演的時候 我特別懷抱著和老朋友見面的心情 刻意梳妝打扮 單刀赴會 就像從前一樣---我一個人 看著我的慾望與城市
SATC the movie也沒讓我失望 我淚如潰堤 不能自己

這次SATC 2 本來是一群姊妹約我 後來因為一點小意外 因故缺席
最近終於找了空檔和 J君一起
也許這樣的背離傳統注定了SATC2 的失敗...........

看完電影之後 除了失望還是只有失望
我可以感受導演或是電影公司開始重視異文化 希望能接納異己
在肯認異文化的同時 也試圖拉攏異文化的婦女 展現女人團結的一面
電影公司的企圖和常是絕對是值得多加鼓勵和讚賞
然而, 其表現手法過於概括和幼稚
回教婦女的長袍下穿的其實是最新當季的LV, Channel新裝........
這表示什麼呢? 回教戒律不敵資本主義??!
在觀影的過程中 這樣的意識型態不斷的困擾著我

SATC 最好還是能回歸所謂其娛樂片的型態
正經的議題還是交給別人來處理吧............

午夜人肉列車

恩 今晚我和J君的晚餐電影是 午夜人肉列車
並不是一部適合在用餐的時候興賞的電影 that's for sure.......
片名十分言簡意賅:午夜,人肉,列車.
劇情自然不用多說 大致上也就是在最後一班地鐵上的人肉....


唯一讓我覺得驚豔的是電影的色調 是我一向喜愛的日系藍色
也就只有這樣了
男女主角演技絕對有待加強
全片血漿四射 我想這應該是以吸血鬼為主要觀賞者所制拍的電影

I miss you. 這麼簡單的三個字 代表著無盡的思念

有感

當我所擁有的僅僅剩下我對你的想像
我跟你之間的連結應聲而斷
我們是兩個在現實中獨立而永不相交的個體
然而在虛幻的想像世界裡 我們卻那樣地親密和熟悉
這樣弔詭且矛盾的事實卻常常激起一抹微笑
我不需要擁有你 真實的肉體往往沒有虛幻的想像來得誘人
我寧願就這樣默默地讓你成為我的心靈伴侶
也不要任何因為了解而帶來的毀滅

Ｔhings I miss about having mom around.

Due to some unexpected heart problems, my mom has stayed in the hospital for almost three months now. It's intersting how one will never apperciate having someone around, only when that person isn't there anymore.

The things I miss about having my mom around are:

1. I miss her tieing up the ribbon on my dress. Or how she help me to zip up the back zipper.
=> It is something really small and insignificant but everytime I put on a dress, I miss her.

2. I miss how she would lay on my bed and chat with me.
=> Now she's in the hospital, I often laid on my bed and wondering what she would tell me if she was here.

3. I miss how happy and cheerful she was.
=> It is simply different when she's not around.

4. I miss how I could go to her for just about anything.
=> She's always got my back!

New resolution!

My new resolution for this week/month/year is stop obsessing on stuff I know I shouldn't.

生命的盡頭

距離生命的盡頭 對我來說已經不遠了
我的論文不斷不斷的折磨著我
以油盡燈枯來形容我的狀態都還過度美化

I can only hope: the night is darkest before dawn...

Crash and Burn

Maybe because I have reached the age that people around me start to settle down.
I never reject the possibility of marriage but also not very excited about it.
After having a long, intense conversation with a good friend of my, I came to some conclusions.


He told me that the reason he married his wife is because she has really good personality and they would have a stable life together. Emotionally speaking, she wasn't the best candidate to marry; rationally speaking, she was the best partner to spend the life with. That is, of course extremely selfish. They marry for few years now and everything is like what he would plan it. He said, sometimes when the love or the attraction gets too intense or strong, it is meant to fail.

Strangely enough, I understand what he said but I can do the same? I am so hopelessly romantic (in some ways) that I would rather die alone than die unhappy.

我從來沒辦法體會當你跟我說 你與前女友共度你婚禮的前一晚
這件事情最後終於成為壓垮你婚姻的最後一根稻草

現在我懂了

也許你跟我一樣都不甘屈服於社會的壓力
這大概也就是為什麼你說我會過得很辛苦

謝謝你給的預言 儘管當時的我並不了解

當什麼都說不出來的時候 就越是要說些什麼 靜默是最刻骨銘心的處罰'
弔詭的是 言不及義 表面上看來歡鬧 卻才是最無聲的狀態
越吵雜的音樂中 痛苦的嘶吼越刺耳